horkai, this blog hella needa brand new skin.

so looking forward to today's incredible tales :)

i'd learnt a lot from the 3-day motivation workshop. at first, it was a rather boring session for me. cos we would have to sit down there and listen to them for 14 hours man, killa.

there were 3 trainers for the entire course. md amin, gerald lee and stuart tan. as well as their assistants (basically the dj for the course), tong, ahmad and daryl. amin was my favourite trainer for two simple reasons. he's the funniest trainer of all, so fun to hang out with, and he clearly know how us, teenagers feel, and i thank him for that. also, he was the one who spend the most amount of time with us, and all of us enjoyed his lessons, for sure.

gerald wasn't too bad, quite funny but not as funny as amin though. his voice damn power, the girls say his voice macho sia. haha it's funny when he's laughing, like ha-ha-ha in a deep low voice. one thing i don't like about him was, he tend to talk too loudly and shouts to the mike quite often - i hate shouting.

stuart spent only 2 days with us. still he's a nice man. although the people behind called him psycho from behind, that was kinda funny but, bad thing to say. apparently he showed us lots of videos, so well don't really know what kind of person he is. all 3 of them made us laugh. amin made us cry, gerald made us tired, not too sure about stuart.

i love it when amin started with his "ni na na ni na", which means some vulgarities. haha and his "retribution~", saying that next time ah your kid ah, hairy orang utan the broom to sweep the floor etc. some really evil but really really funny sentences. however, on the 2nd day, he made us cry.

he told us how important our parents are, saying if we want to do well in our o level or not. unable to support your parents and just let them to fend for themselves and things like that, made a lot of people cried.

last day very fun and tiring. we had to hold our goals in life written on a piece of paper with our hands straight for 1.5 hours at the basketball court. hot and tiring. the fun and a bit sad part lies on the closing ceremony. jason, nicholas, cameron, tamimi, kaiming, hasif, rashid, haziqah, marleenah, suriyana, najat and zarah, and also the rest who talked on the stage about their family and stuffs like that, THEY WERE GREAT.

after listening to some of their stories, i'd found out that i am so so much lucky than some of them. with a better studying environment, there is no reasons for me to score lower than them. we sang "if we hold on together" once again, real fun. and sorry dad and mom, from today onwards, i will do my very best to achieve higher marks.

still, WORDS ARE CHEAP. SAY NO USE, MUST TAKE ACTION. it's hard, really hard, but i will try my best to do so. fellow mates, let's work hard for our very last battle! jiayou! and also, congratulations to amin! he's getting married soon! :D

words starting with f are normally used quite often, especially by those people whom swear a lot. "fuck" is a common term for them. still, f stands for a lot important beings in our life. family and friends (and maybe fans, i don't have, but amin got a lot already! haha). imagine how dfficult and tough we will have to continue with our life without our family and friends. so cherish them while you can, you will never ever regret doing so.

don't know why, till now, i'm still not motivated to do any work related to studies. i feel like doing nothing and just, forget about all my worries. adding on to the burden, my neck is aching. didn't have a good sleep i guess.

there's physics test tomorrow and i've yet to study for it. i think i'm gonna flunk it anyway. no matter how hard i try to study, those words and diagrams just can't fit into my awfully idiotic brain.

finally, tomorrow is the last day of school of the week for me. cos i'll be having motivation course on thursday, friday and saturday. gonna miss lots of shows. but still, if this is gonna work and push me to do what i don't in the past, why not?

same feeling as yesterday. very tired, very sad. somehow, i feel like an outsider to everyone, an extra person. putting more weight on my problems, 15 days is all i have to complete all 8 plates for my art. the truth is that, i haven't started on even one, cos i changed my topic.

feeling so emo sia me. i'm starting to realise that, band has already become part of me, without me noticing it. ever since i left band, i've been very very unhappy. however, the sad thing is, those friends of mine in band seemed to forget about me as an individual, except for some who do, and i really really appreciate it. thanks, you people are just so great. love you bless you.

jeez, i'm spouting nonsense now. all right the end, any further complains will lead to the fact that i'm desperately trying to gain sympathy.

went to downtown east to meet up with kaiming and aly. first they say meet at the stage, then arcade. made me roam all about :/ then went to find estelle and the others. estelle as temari (from naruto), erica as yuki nagato (from sos brigade), vanessa as haruhi suzumiya (also from sos b) and keldon as kyouya (from ouran high). haha and kaiming as uzumaki naruto (from naruto), me, aly and shawn aren't cosplaying.

we saw A LOT MANY MUCH cosplayers there. i saw naruto (one guy + lkm), sasuke (ryan), sakura, kakashi, sai, yamato, neji, kankuro, temari (estelle), kisame, sasori and tobi. so cool sia, if got the others even more shiok. aly might be cosplaying ino after o level :) saw zaraki kenpachi, he like so pathetic! stood there for 40+ mins and nobody wanted to take a picture of him. me and aly were laughing our ass off. ok lah don't so bad lah but his hair damn flat. the anime one is spiky, super spiky.

the most incredible thing is that, the whole of espada from 1-10 (bleach) were all present, just like a class! oh that includes aizen, gin, tosen and inoue. they were like following the storyline and acting a drama on stage. then ichigo was like going to use bankai against grimmjow and ulquiorra, then he went behind a piece of black cloth to change into bankai mode for about 1 min or 2. so damn funny sia, everyone was like BANKAI SO SLOW MEH. haha plus grimmjow used an invisible cero -.- anyway it was great.

kaiming left around 3:50+ to meet jimson, aly left for alicia chien's chalet around 4:30. had hell lot of fun there. erica was playing with her hat beside the air-con and kept saying "oh my condom is outta control!!!", hahaha and they place the hat on keldon's you-know-what. i kept playing with estelle's fan, so cool :D then we found a broken sword on the floor so we used it to make vanessa kill erica. haha it attracted lots of attention instantly. thanks to keldon's discovery of sword on the floor, my discovery of blade stuck in the handle/cover.

when it's around the grand finale, all cosplayers are invited to dance on the stage. ALL OF THEM WERE SO DAMN DARN HIGH SIA. i wanted to join them, but all of them were cosplayers, aiyo. so me and shawn were like so jealous down there. i was carrying the fan and him carrying the hat and guitar. man he attacked me with the guitar for at least 3 times! he knocked into one lady with it too o.o saw pikachu, transformer, gundam and iron man there. the gundam was damn cool, eyes were glowing, just that it was walking at a snail's pace. tell you, the iron man is exactly like the one for the movie advertising! so real man, unlike the budget transformer (not saying cos it's truly superthetic)

had a teeny weeny incident at the backstage after everything. first estelle thought she lost her wallet. she was freaked out, and she went to the toilet where she changed into temari and came back here, only to found out that erica and van found it the moment she ran out. so dramazxz worhsxz. next, the ichigo seemed to be very unhappy. most likely that his team members didn't turned up, yeah pangseh him lah. then we began to search for him and found him outside at the grassy place. and everything was back to normal as we headed to take neoprint. wah seh, the most original neoprint ever. cos the machine was faulty, we couldn't edit the pictures. worse still, we can't get to choose them. so suay, it turned out to be a ultra small piece of stickable photograph. never mind lah cos i didn't pay them the money for neoprint :P

yay no school tomorrow cos it's youth day!
looking forward to the next cosplay (after o level!)

today's lesson is almost slacking through all the time. after school, kaiming, estelle and van went to buy kaiming's contacts. me and alicia got oral today. cos oral starts at 2:15, i went to the music room to visit my dearest band members! haha, they miss me so much man. all begging me to not to go for oral sia, aiyo. then went to check when is my turn for oral with boonkiat. so suay, i'm the last candidate for today.

then went to hall for oral (despite all of them were kneeling down begging), all the chinese students of 4E4 were there, the only 4E5 chinese students were aly, cameron and me. i waited from 2:15 to 4:10 for my turn. there were 17 of us, 5 by 5, so me and cameron were sitting at the last row. it might be a good thing or a bad thing, the fan is just above us. so, it was chilling, somemore we were damn nervous, having that don't really seem to be helping.

i made 2 mistakes during the oral - don't know how to pronounce 3 words and know what is that word but said wrongly. plus during the conversation section, i nearly said internet (in english). luckily i changed to "hu lian wang". :)

shit, there's art tomorrow. another stoning period for me. i'm starting to dislike art because of the prep work. my math is falling too, need to ask loads of question or else i'll be lost, just like the tv show "lost". ironically, they can get lost for 4 seasons, wow. and "prison break", after 3 seasons, they are still trapped inside, how incredible.