don't know why, till now, i'm still not motivated to do any work related to studies. i feel like doing nothing and just, forget about all my worries. adding on to the burden, my neck is aching. didn't have a good sleep i guess.

there's physics test tomorrow and i've yet to study for it. i think i'm gonna flunk it anyway. no matter how hard i try to study, those words and diagrams just can't fit into my awfully idiotic brain.

finally, tomorrow is the last day of school of the week for me. cos i'll be having motivation course on thursday, friday and saturday. gonna miss lots of shows. but still, if this is gonna work and push me to do what i don't in the past, why not?

same feeling as yesterday. very tired, very sad. somehow, i feel like an outsider to everyone, an extra person. putting more weight on my problems, 15 days is all i have to complete all 8 plates for my art. the truth is that, i haven't started on even one, cos i changed my topic.

feeling so emo sia me. i'm starting to realise that, band has already become part of me, without me noticing it. ever since i left band, i've been very very unhappy. however, the sad thing is, those friends of mine in band seemed to forget about me as an individual, except for some who do, and i really really appreciate it. thanks, you people are just so great. love you bless you.

jeez, i'm spouting nonsense now. all right the end, any further complains will lead to the fact that i'm desperately trying to gain sympathy.