can you believe that i don't know what o levels are for until mid april - june? wait, i think i mentioned it before. ok, i didn't know why i come to school and study until motivation camp. that's very stupid. i came to school cos i was told to.

just like that time when i'm choosing my secondary school. i'm being led around without knowing what's going on. i realised that how doofus i am when i see people younger than me already have their goals in mind and here i am, don't know what the heck am i doing for the past few years.

it's weird but, i think i came to school because of my friends. imagine you would be studying in a classroom with people talking among themselves leaving you alone. i was in that situation before, and i'm telling you, it's agony.

i don't know what came over me, the mood when blogging the previous post just faded and now i'm just feeling damn stupid. as if everyone has already forgot about me. band mates, classmates, all of them. this feeling is killing me.

it's not just any common test, or PSLE, it's GCE 'O' LEVEL.